There has been so much talk about the wind storm in New England, the massive earthquake in Chile, the tsunami warning, the reflections of what Gaia has brought to us in this early year alone... the interesting piece is where people mostly stand on this... no two answers are alike. You have the group of people who are in pain over the destructive turns nature is taking... others who fear doom over December 2012 luring... then another group who feel it's because of global warming... those that don't even believe in global warming... I know people from each of these groups and more. Where do I stand?
Several years ago I did a shamanic apprenticeship with the Eye of the Eagle program. In my second year we did a lot of work with weather spirits. I remember clear as day one particular journey where we asked the weather spirits for a message about nature, anything they wanted to share with us that they felt others needed to know. My journey was powerful... the collective elements joining together as One, yet each separately making their voices known. The message I received was an acronym: R.A.G.E: Roaring Against Global Extinction.
The message years ago was incredibly profound, it made me look at the Earth and spirits of this realm (and beyond) much differently. I became more aware of my footprints in this realm and on this land, and I realized I needed to be held more accountable for what was going on, for my own role in Gaia's embrace.
How did that look like?
It was a combination of practical things like looking at my waste, looking at what was needlessly being used (or abused), the things we're privileged to but often take for granted: hot water, heat, electricity... finding myself without those for the short times our power has been out has been a reinforced message from Gaia on gratitude.
I looked at my relationship with the elements, asking myself where my being, my actions, and my thoughts all fit into them, how that aspect was working directly with them, or in other cases, working indirectly with them. These parts takes a deep awareness, something our general society often lacks in daily life. It meant that not only was I needing to look at actions and thought forms that extended without (outside of myself) and how that affected Gaia, but it really meant that when you have uncovered all the aspects without, you return to "The Charge" and remind yourself of what's within, and how we're all extensions of the deities, so in return, WE are Gaia, embodied in physical aspect, and our inner realm has just as much accountability as our outer realm.
That was a heavy one to digest, sometimes still is. When you think about what's going on in the world, the constant complaints of how horrific the news is -- I, for one, hardly ever watch the news. Some would say it's being naive, only wanting to focus on the good, being blinded by the "reality" of what's going on. I've learned long ago and accepted that my reality is truly my own, and if others vibrate on the same wave length as my reality, then our coexistence beings that spiraling effect of harmony.
FB, for example, has become a launching pad for what sucks in our life. I think at times we need a venue to complain to, to release... I get that, I've utilized this space for that same purpose as well. But what about those who are simply in that state, all the time, feeding off the negative, succumbing to the shit in their lives and feel themselves worthless, loveless, less than... like finds like. Darkness relates to darkness. Light embraces light.
I complain, I do, I have moments where I lay it out on the floor, emptying a puzzle box, not caring which piece goes where, but wanting to thrash it about, stomp on it, become defiant, even bend them and contort them in childish annoyance... but it's rare, and it's not constant, and it's release. Functional? Only when it harms none, which, of course, includes myself. But we have those moments, where our thoughts are less than, where we feel less than, where complaining about the shitty aspects of life warrant minor tantrums... but imagine a world constantly obliged to tantrums? How does that affect the outer world; Gaia?
I've been doing some inner work and channeling on this piece about R.A.G.E, working with the weather spirits in understanding. It's extremely rare to hear me ever "damn" the weather. Blizzard, rain, hail, whatever it may be, I embrace it for what it is. My Shaman teacher once said that most of society is programmed to look at the sunny weather as being "good" days, while rain is "bad". We don't see the balance or the action caused by one or the other, probably because most don't care. Rain prevents summer bbq's that we love so much; too much sun prevents the land from being nourished with water to feed our soil; too much rain creates the opposite reaction...
I've been getting a lot of information relative to the ascension our souls and consciousness are rising to, otherwise known to some as 2012. One piece I sit with silence in. I have shared it with only two others, not out of elitism of "look at this information I have", but because they're neutral in the reception of this information, and won't judge it one way or the other. But the piece that is equally important in terms of raising consciousness is awakening. That's what enlightenment is all about: being awakened.
We each carry these threads in our lives; some are heavy duty gauge, pliable to some degree, others needing tools to conform to our desires; some made out of string, easy to cut, but also easy to tangle... we carry these threads, in both harmonious and discordant ways, and at times we simply knot them up, letting it build and build, and we cut them. Some new age practitioners have you looking at who or what is at the end of the cord, but they don't delve deeply into how it was knotted, how it was created so heavily into something outside of ourselves. We blame the other party, pure conditioning to not look at our own actions, and so we cut it, cut the cord, release the ties that bind... but what if these knotted cords is simply unconsciousness that got tangled with another unconscious being? It's not to put a "good" or "bad" sign on it, just unconscious... unawakened.
I know many teachers and lightworkers that tell their students and clients to give it back to the Earth, whatever you release, give it back to the Earth for "Mother Earth to do what She will with it"... yes, I believe in Her transmutation/transformation of this... but just look at that phrase: "do what She will with it"... She is doing what She will with it, isn't She? The storms, the rage, the hurt, the pain, the anger, all translating itself to our daily weather, our warming of the ice caps, our pollution... these are a manifestation of our reality. We take the knotted cord, cut it, and give it to Her... it's like throwing a pebble into the water, the ripples, the cause and effect...
I give (and share) these pieces with the Goddess, as well. The difference is that I feel heavily called to not only healing these fragmented pieces of Self, but of understanding it as much as I am capable of understanding it. Then again, I think I have this constant need to understand the "why's" to a degree that can be nearly compulsive. But if I can gain an ounce of understanding why, then I create an awareness piece that I, hopefully, will be awakened to should I come across this again. Know Thyself, right?
When I feel content that I have this piece as healed as I can, I give/share it with the Goddess, sometimes offering it and asking that She transmute this for the highest good of all, knowing that sometimes what that highest good is may not be what my consciousness might choose -- it's embracing trust. Most often the other piece I choose to do is ask that the transformation and what is being sent out, what I am releasing, be done in Love. This is my piece. I don't want to "rid" myself of these things or "lose" them... especially not in hate, not in malice, not in aggravation for the grief it may have brought, but in love. I created this aspect for a reason, I am grateful, to whatever degree I can be regarding the situation, and I release, with love.
I think if we look at these pieces in ourselves, rewinding to the beginning of my long thought, and awaken (to whatever degree we can at this time) to what the connection of both our inner and outer realms create, we, as these spiritual beings embodied in this physical realm, can create a consciousness of love and wisdom that translates to natural healing of Gaia, which in turn is a natural healing of ourselves.
It's a lot of thought, a lot of process... but it's what has been on my mind in this ascension piece.